Luscious' Poems
Even when you're gone, you're still here
All the memories come back, They bring my face to tears
All my dreams have been shattered
Oh well, what does it matter
I'm trying to continue
Things keep coming back, too many, too few
Where were you
When I needed a hug or an "I Love You"?
You have betrayed me
My feelings hurt, can't you see?
A lot, you have put me through
I sit here crying and feeling blue
Some days are fine
Finally, peace of mind
Some days are hard
Me, you decided to discard
At night, I cry myself to sleep
Alone, my mind, thoughts run deep
I, sometimes, think of us
The caring, holding and trust
Days and nights, I despise you
What happened to us, I haven't a clue
You went searching for yourself
I put "us" in boxes on a shelf
We came a long way
Three years, up until that day
That day, of grief and sadness
You left me with all the mess
Till death do us part?
You tore my soul and my heart
I kept myself in solitude
Loneliness seems to be my mood
The apartment is completely different
Myself, panicking about the bills and rent
All these, You left me to deal with
This is not freedom, this is bliss
I look back at our past
"Do I love you?", you never asked
I was always the one to initiate conversation
You kept to yourself, depressed, I was lost in the confusion
I am angry and feeling rage
Healing, is this part of its stage?
Sadness, hurt, is another set of feelings
To rid all of these, I am pleading
Why did you do it?
I sit here having a fit
I miss someone here
Please someone wipe my tears
Crying is my state of mind
My strong side, I am trying to find
A happy smile on my face is one of my masks
Answering people, saying "I'm fine!" if they ask
That day, you walked out the door
I guess "us", you didn't want anymore
You came back with an unconcerned look
Unaware that when you left, "our" life you took
I get questions everyday
Asked in different ways
How do I explain?
The ache, hurt and pain
I know you aren't coming back
This I know, as a fact
The love I yearn
But now I have learned
Learned to be strong
Though a hug I long
A new life, I have to grow
A new seed to sow
